23.08.04 - 9:47 PM
well, i don't even know what to tell you.
everyone is so afraid of change that they are afraid to admit it is happening. that it happens. that no matter how tightly you hang on to people or things or places, everything slips. you even lose grip of yourself.
everyone thinks that when things are chaotic you can stop and start thinking about yourself, and then when things are okay everyone will be waiting for you. but people are selfish and no one ever waits. you have to start wondering if you've ever waited, yourself. i know i haven't.
we always expect a lot more out of other people than we expect of ourselves. it's like no matter how great you expect yourself to be, everyone else has to be better. like they serve you because this is your goddamn planet and you are all that matters. everyone has to be a better friend than you need to be.
i just hate watching idealistic people quiver on the brink because human nature isn't what they want it to be. because people aren't perfect and you can't classify and track. even though we all follow basic laws of nature and society, we're still individuals but somewhere inside we all want to be the same. we all want to be predictable, reliable, and constant.
everyone forgets diversity sometimes. even me. sometimes i have to stop and think about what other people are thinking, because not everyone is me and not everyone has the same mindset. not everyone worries about how other people lose grip of other people. not everyone worries about how people lose grip of themselves. not everyone.
but not just me.
